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Embracing Darkness

How the arms of the clock swivel faster than it was 10 years ago. And the heat is scorching even at dusk, the air sticking to the skin like slivers of strings soaked in sweet syrup.

The heat may be unbearable, but time eventually cools it down as it transitions from light to dark. In darkness, all senses are magnified for survival, and in time we navigate our way through till we reach safety.

Wherever or whatever ‘safety’ is for you.

How Darkness envelops. It can grip you. Choke you. Scare you. Consume you. You can blend in. Hide from plain sight. Be mysterious. Be feared. But, Darkness doesn’t have to be negative, it means to embrace a part of what we usually don’t confront or rather, can’t confront. It is that moment where one teetered between the chaos of happiness and the calm of insanity. And deciding how to deal with it.

Darkness is the time to reflect, along with quietness.

We live through conversations, colors, laughter, sand, water and wine under the sun, sea and friends, but as darkness blankets, we realize we are vulnerable. When the world sleeps and you are staring at the ceiling from your bed, your mind take a whole new turn. You wondered, how billions of people you can reach out but still feel alone?

You can probably say, I can solve this on my own. I am used to it, I will be ok eventually, it’s no big deal. You can be indifferent to others who tried to reach out, because you do not want to be perceived as weak, needy or a failure to hold on. You can probably try and have night vision. But I don’t think anyone has that grasped in their lifetime ever. Even if you try.

We all go through something in our lives that changes us. But that is not suppose to stop us from caring for another person. To reach out to the darkness and hold a hand to listen, to say everything will be alright.

And you don’t have to walk in darkness alone.

Snippet 3: Love

Love is a 4 letter word,

a small word that overwhelms.

A word that can build and destroy,

souls and hearts in a matter of minutes.

Cities great and small.

It can instantly turn you,

turn you into the haze of dreams,

into the fires of desire,

into the abyss of depression.

Love is devastatingly simple,

but also devastatingly complex.

A puzzle that is forever changing,

not knowing if we will ever solve it,

or know it,

or grasp it fully.

It will always be a mystery,

an emotion that even the coldest,

melts upon its touch.

– Camy 9:54am / May 19, 2013

Snippet 2: In the Quiet

In the quiet I reflect,

the matters that mattered.

The life I had lived

and has yet to be lived.

In this new pattern I weave,

slowly and in caution.

For it is fragile, and deep.

that one wrong move will unravel,

destroying all that was made.

So I hold on to it,

and kept my gaze fixated,

never leaving the pattern.

 

In the quiet I gazed,

into the colors that sway and saturate,

as I rarely blink,

remembering every contour,

every shade.

Wounding every single hue in its place,

creating a world of new beginnings,

and a new name.

Blessed I feel,

in the quiet I reflect amidst chaos of reality,

beneath all I have yet to discover,

i know there are answers waiting in every corner.

– Camy 8:05pm / May 13, 2013

Snippet 1: Call

Call

Strings in my heart,

were pulled and plucked, 

to create a melody that resonates in my soul.

It is a way,

to describe a call,

to the one who makes me feel whole.

– May 1, 2013 9:57am

*It’s been a while since I wrote a snippet of poetry. And this came to me suddenly. Glad to know that in a way, I haven’t lost it.

Happy Labor day y’all.

Monday Vibes

Mondays are often a love-hate relationship situation. But it depends what mood I wake up to in the morning.

I don’t really have qualms meeting the first day of the work week but there were days when it is just too unbearable to get up and……work.

But ever since I started in this new venture, it has been challenging but a wonderful experience so far. The people I work with matters. For the mood also moves with them. And so far it has been a positive mood which was missing in the past.

I hope all of us will see Monday in a more positive light. Hey, it’s just 4 more days until the next weekend. Right?

Have a great week ahead.

Claiming It #1: 2013 is THE Year of AWESOME

One of the great milestones of my life is having to claim that 2013 is going to be the year of AWESOME.

So far, I have been keeping in line claiming this statement. Bold enough as it is.

And what used to be plans, just verbal diarrhea of what my erratic mind wanted to unload, are becoming a reality. Each are slowly falling into place. It is scary, for it means that my life is (finally) beginning to take shape.

Because sharing is caring, I would like to share a few of these milestones that is so far, making 2013 AWESOME.

Sometime this year, I will be marrying my best friend, partner in crime, and fellow homebody, Dark Gravity. We are in the middle of planning and while it’s hella expensive, erratic and even stressful, we have not felt the chaos yet because of the people who love and support us in taking this big step. And are offering ways to make it easy for us to plow through. TenksGod.

I am in a job that gives me the opportunity to stretch my wings. I had experienced being tied down for too long in places that doesn’t allow growth. So it’s a wonderful blessing to find a silver lining after all the storms and grey clouds I had to go through from the past. It’s awesome to think that one can be part of something that can spark a positive revolution and change for the better. Oh yes.

I decided to live better. Healthier I mean. And minimal. It’s still a struggle but at least I am on the road and had decided for realz to not turn back.

That’s it for now. I can’t wait for the next months to come. Whatever challenges or hiccups that may come my way, bring it on.

In closing, I will leave you with this:

ubuntu_bydarkgravity

 

(calligraphy courtesy of Dark Gravity)

What is your BIG CLAIM this year?

Have a great day everyone!